Memory Project

I really didn't want to post a blog, since I still don't have a solid handle on what i want to do. but I couldn't just be in class and blatantly not post something.

My idea still runs along the lines of the fun times of Prom or Ball. I have specific memories from both. I drank throughout the night of Prom, multiple danceoffs, fun parties after both Proms I went to, and ofcourse the after-Ball party which that idea got rejected. I have many feelings and emotions from my first prom. I was very nervous and excited leading up to it b/c I had never done anything like it before. And naturally being a Junior in high school you hear the hype of Prom and what it entails. When the day came i was incredibly excited, it was a jubilant day, and me and my friends knew it was going to be a blow out. My Prom as a whole was ablast, me and my friends had flasks and drank as the night went on, so the memories of that night get more choatic as the night matured. My Ball was the same, I had already been to two Proms so this one was the same go-around. I was excited, happy, and any other emotion used to describe those b/c well, it was just a great day. My overall memories of Ball were better b/c it was at night, I was a year older, a year more mature, and it was all put into perspective b/c it was at the twighlight of my high school career.

Whether i can choose one of the three times i've been to Prom or Ball i have a general idea for the beginning layout. I'd like to have either a full image of myself or an image of myself from ball and prom. My image will be highlighted once you rollover it, and it will either take you through a collage of the night, or a specific event of it. My theme for my Prom was "I've Had the Time Of My Life," and my theme for Ball was "Don't Stop Believing." The other Prom I went to had the theme of "Oh What A Night." W/e I figure out to display as my memory I can have these songs be the background music as when i think back to these nights, these songs come to mind.

Memory

I chose to focus on my memory of my first dress rehearsal for dance when I was three. I danced for fifteen years of my life and it was always very important to me. Many people deal with stage fright. It's very common when you begin performing, but also if you are giving a presentation or a speech or anything you do in front of many people. Throughout my time with my studio, I remember stage fright hitting me only twice. The most recent was when I performed my solo as a senior for the first time, and the earliest was my first dress rehearsal. I remember clearly getting ready, walking the halls to the backstage area, playing "Simon Says" before getting in our places, and crying my eyes out when it was time to perform. I jumped into my dance teacher's arms and watched through my tears as my class performed the dance we had worked on for the whole year. As a three year old, going on that stage in front of all those people was terrifying, and I hope to convey this through my piece. I went on to perform the next two nights at the recitals and overcame the emotional turmoil that I had encountered during that rehearsal.

Emotions - fear, chaos, anxiety, terror, anger

Imagery - My piece will consist of images of all elements of a dress rehearsal/recital that I remember. Because it is a long-term memory, it will be portrayed as a series of images rather than video footage. It will be a linear piece that will depict the growing fear inside of me as I was about to perform. It will begin with images of make-up, costume, dance shoes and other items used in preparation for a recital. Being that the colors of the costume I wore are a baby blue and white, as I show the preparation, it will be very calm. It will proceed to portray a backstage area...the lights, the stage, the seats in the audience...all of which will be flashes as the fear inside the three year old version of me begins. I will then begin with a series of images that show eyes staring at me and multiplying. I feel that these eyes will represent what most people are most afraid of when it comes to performing, the hundreds of people staring at you just waiting for you to mess up. I am not 100% positive of how I will portray when i watched my class from backstage while crying, but I feel it will develop as I begin creating this piece.

Sound - The sounds for my piece will consist of sounds of applause from the audience, the sounds of low talking and the atmosphere of the room we got ready in, and the song that we danced to, the ABCs.

Memory

List 1: Feelings and Emotions
- Happy
- Excited
- Anxious
- Hungry
- Tired
- Bored
- Relaxed

I feel a little bit of everything. At the begining of the day I'm excited to start shopping, but through out the day my mood changes. Sometimes we get bored waiting for our moms to finish shopping in the mom stores, and I usually get hungry as soon as we get there. The movies are definately relaxing, and by the end I know I'm tired and ready to go home.

List 2: Imagery
- Lots of people
- Stores
- Mall Directory
- Food court
- Movie theatre, popcorn
- Shopping bags
- Pictures with Santa
- Elevators and escalators

List 3: Sounds
- Chatter, people talking
- Christmas music
- Laughing
- Cash registers
- Children crying, laughing
- loud techno music (A & F)

Feelings Sounds Images

Feelings- Nightmares: scared worried frightened terror horror illusion torment tribulation anxious panicky petrified.

Good dreams: captivated laughing peaceful playful upbeat comfortable satisfied excited

Sounds- Nightmares: accelerations clowns laughing heavy breathing breathless gasping crying footsteps rocket 

Good dreams:baseball game basketball game sports arena outdoors nature girls fun playing laughing  

Images- Nightmares: clowns rockets cliffs darkness whiteroom death destruction 

Good dreams: video of playing baseball bouncing basketball women childhood games

FINAL

Emotions through my hypnosis

- Tired, relaxed, confused, lightheaded, warm, hot, chilled, freezing, happy warm, embarrassed, good, awful, disgusted, shocked, bashful, tired again, confused, really confused, extremely shocked, finally really embarrassed

Visual description of images

- floating through clouds, climbing a ladder, opening a door, relaxing on a cloud, being on a beach with my favorite drink, stuck in a blizzard just wearing a small dress, jumping on a stranger to get warm, being shot with a marshmallow, smell of a perfect garden, smell of garbage and rotten milk, witnessing friends naked, myself being naked, being a dog, running into the stranger I jumped on, flashback

Sounds through my hypnosis

- relaxing yoga music, sound of ocean and seagulls, a wintry wind, shot gun but it wasn't intense, birds chirping, garbage truck, laughing, screaming, barking, laughing even more

Descriptions

Children playing around a giant toilet.

Fishing for frogs.

Frogs coming out of the toilet.

Mom face upset.

Children not caring.

**Exaggerated and comical**

Plopping toilet sounds, frogs sounds, Mom voices, children voices...etc


Children Memories
Pre-Dream State
A Memory
Flashbacks

Project 4-BStrong

For my final project I want to really do something that I will find successful. Representing a memory to me is something that is best represented and expressed through a photograph. Not always are photographs represented in scrapbook form; believing that photographs are visual and accurate exact memories, I want to do my final project which will be based on photographs and sound. The memory is one of me when I was younger which had to do with frogs and sewage. I grew up in a country setting where there wasn't a lot to do but explore outside. Exploring my sister and I found an area which was full of frogs just relaxing, it was great and we played with them all day. We couldn't wait to tell our Mom but she informed us we couldn't play there because it was like hanging out in one giant toilet. My Mom thought we understood what that meant but we didn't and were out there in the sewage the next day; we set up a board so that we could hang out over the "muddy water" that was full of frogs and watch them. I got brave one day while frog watching and decided to reach over and try to catch one, while I trying my hardest the board tipped and I fell right into the sewer. My sister couldn't believe what just happened and I was soaked and couldn't stop laughing. We left and walked back up to the house and my Mom couldn't believe what she saw. I was covered from head to toe in what I thought was mud, she told me I stunk and said to immediately put my clothes into the washer and take a shower. While I did my sister was informed of what I had really fell into while playing with frogs, she was really grossed out and couldn't wait to pick on me. After cleaning up my Mom asked me what happened, I said I had fell in the mud while catching the frogs. She was mad because she told us to not go out there but was laughing inside because she didn't tell us what we were actually playing in...which probably would have kept us from going into the sewage. I was a little upset but found it funny and wasn't really grossed out; I was young and didn't really care what I smelled like all the time.